A Peace Like No Other

A little over a month ago, I began to pray about a couple of different issues. All of these issues weighed heavily on my heart. For some, I had an idea as to what kind of answer I would prefer; while others I really didn't know what was best. In every case though, I earnestly and sincerely prayed, day after day, that God would lead me in the best path whether it was as I would imagine or otherwise.

In the last week, I have seen answers to two of those prayers. Neither came in the form that I expected and both present me with a daunting task that initially left me worried and wondering "Can I handle this?". In the days to follow, I have had a chance to talk with a few people about these situations and through those discussions, something became clear to me. God answered my prayers. While the answer may seem daunting to me now, God knows this is what is best for me. Because of that, I can rest assured that I can handle what is to come. It's amazing the immediate and all-encompassing peace I found once I realized that. It is truly a peace like no other- even though the circumstances have not changed.

You see it all comes down to how I go about with the handling of it and where I look for strength and guidance. When I look at all of the circumstances before me through my human eyes alone, they are intimidating, daunting and overwhelming, but when I look at them through eyes of faith in God's might and power, I know everything is possible. The issue is not now nor has it ever been whether or not God is able, "for nothing is impossible with God." (Luke 1:37) The issue is and always has been do I have the faith to believe in the limitless power and knowledge of God? We are taught in Matthew that we limit ourselves when we lack faith. "He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." (Matthew 17:20-21) Nothing within my ability could make a mountain move, but for God, such a task is a breeze. I am able to take hold of such power when I place my faith solely and completely in Him. So in the end, it all comes down to daily, minute by minute, relying on Christ for His strength, His comfort, His guidance and power- placing my complete and uninterrupted faith in Him.

While finding peace in the knowledge of God's answer is a blessing in and of itself, this is not the end of how I have watched God work in my life and thoughts this past week. Of those situations I was dedicated in lifting up a month ago, there is still one that is not completely answered (or so it seems to me). As I wait upon the Lord for His guidance and answer, I have found that my worrying and questioning over this situation have been replaced with great peace because I know there is nothing better than to wait on the Lord and allow Him to work His will in my life. If I but let Him, He will lead me down the best path in this situation as well. It may not be what I would want, but it will be amazing all the same because I know my patience and willingness to wait will lead to a better ending than I could create for myself.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

Beyond the Manger

This morning at church, our minister preached on what the babe in the manger had to tell us about Christmas, and specifically, what the babe had to say was the reason for why he came. The sermon took me back to a lesson I learned last Christmas from none other than our little girl. She was right at 18 months old and I remember she was fascinated with my various nativity sets. Her greatest interest was the little baby Jesus in the manger. This interest was not perhaps what you might initially expect. Without fail every day, she would remove (or try to remove-depending on the set), Jesus from the manger. She was determined that he did not belong there. I'm certain part of this came from her interest to understand how things come apart and go back together (a quality she has had since infancy), but as I picked up each baby Jesus and placed him back in his manger, I realized there was a great lesson there. Yes at Christmas, we think of Jesus as a little baby born in humble circumstances with nothing but a manger for a bed, but the story didn't end there. Hallelujah! The story continues to this very day because after his birth in the stable, he went on to be a man who walked this earth, become the Savior of this world, and rose victorious as the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

Our little daughter was right. Jesus doesn't belong in the manger. What a wonderful blessing to remember this at this time of the year. What we celebrate at Christmas would mean nothing if Christ didn't later allow himself to be die on the cross and then rise again, victorious over death. Instead of a little baby in the manger, I serve a risen Lord, one who sits at the right of God in heaven watching over and interceding on behalf of those who call him Lord and Savior.

Living A Blessed Life

"By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence. And because of his glory and excellence, he has given us great and precious promises. These are the promises that enable you to share his divine nature and escape the world's corruption caused by human desires. 

In view of all this, make every effort to respond to God's promises. Supplement your faith with a generous provision of moral excellence, and moral excellence with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with patient endurance, and patient endurance with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love for everyone.

The more you grow like this, the more productive and useful you will be in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ."

2 Peter 1:3-8

I had no intention to stop journaling about my blessings; honestly from the beginning I never had a time frame or number I had to reach before I was finished. You see for me this has never been about reaching an arbitrary goal or personally-assigned benchmark. I was not concerned with whether I could count 100 or 500 blessings. I did not tell myself I had to count my blessings daily for one month, six months or a year. Yes, I have celebrated and been excited when I hit various points along this path, but it has never been about that.

I wanted to change me. I was not happy with what I saw within myself. I saw attitudes and even some behaviors that disappointed me and that I knew I didn't have to accept in my life. I knew I could be more and rise above those attitudes and behaviors, and I knew it all went back to how I looked at my life. As our minister has said recently in his sermons, "Thoughts affect our attitude. Our attitude affects our behaviors and our behaviors lead to habits. So if you want to change a habit, look to your behaviors. If you need to change your behavior, take a look at your attitude and if you want to change your attitude, you must first change your thoughts." I needed to change my thoughts because I knew God had given me everything (and more) that I needed to have love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness gentleness, and self-control. My thoughts were focused on the wrong things and because of that, my attitude and behaviors were wrong as well.

It took me a long time to write up my last post(s) of blessings. Not because I couldn't think of any new blessings; I did every day. Not only did I think of a new blessing but each day at some point- maybe in the shower, while cleaning, while driving or some other quiet time- I found myself mentally writing out my latest journal entry with the intent to sit down and put it "on paper" later that day. That time was very busy because of several different events in our family plus I was not always feeling stellar. Thus my physical journaling suffered, but the count and focus on all that God is and has done continued. One day I realized, I wasn't thinking of a specific new blessing, but I was living the life of one truly blessed. By no means does this mean I am perfect or that I have it all figured out. I still have moments or days where my emotions get the best of me and affect my attitude, but overall and by a huge margin, I don't just count or mentally know that I am blessed. I live in the knowledge that I am blessed and with that, I am living more in the power of my Lord Jesus Christ and the fruits of his Spirit. Suddenly, I found that I didn't need to write. This doesn't mean I won't write more, but I will not likely journal on a daily basis.

God has done more for me than I deserve and has worked wonders in me, and I am so grateful and thankful for His patience with me as I came to this realization. So as I sign off today, I will not say "God bless you" for that has and continues to happen despite you or me. Instead,

May God's blessings be abundantly clear to you and may you live your life as one who is blessed.

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth

Thy own dear presence to cheer and to guide

Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow

Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside.

Great is thy faithfulness!

Great is thy faithfulness!

Morning by morning, new mercies I see.

All I have needed thy hand hath provided.

Great is thy faithfulness, Lord unto me!

Long Overdue Part II- Four Fifty-Six thru Four Seventy-Five

"But the Lord reigns forever, executing judgment from his throne. 

He will judge the world with justice and rule the nations with fairness.

The Lord is a shelter for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble.

Those who know your name trust in you, for you, O Lord, do not abandon those who search for you."

Psalm 9:7-10

Tuesday, October 4th

456) Family gatherings- Tonight four generations from my Dad's family were gathered together. My grandparents, my uncle, aunt, and cousins here in Albuquerque and our family all spent the evening together. It was wonderful- almost like a little taste of family gatherings from when I was a child. I loved it and am so thankful we were all able to spend time together as a family.


Wednesday, October 5th

457) "What's that?"- This is our daughter's latest phrase and sometimes, it is the only thing she says for an hour. She will ask us about items that she knows. She will point to something way out in the distance making it next to impossible to know which item she is talking about. She will ask and ask again- without a break until I can almost wish for silence. Yet, I am thankful for this phase in our daughter's life. She is curious and she wants to understand the world around her. I am thankful for that interest and the chance to teach our daughter more of and about the things in this world.


Thursday, October 6th

458) A long way to go- I know and recognize that even if I have grown and changed for the better, I still have a long way to go. At one point, this might have discouraged me, but now I am thankful to recognize how much more God has in store for me. This is not the end, which means what is yet to come must be awesome and indescribable.


Friday, October 7th

459) "No h'air balloons."- We planned to go to a hot air balloon glow this week and once even were in the car with the hopes that the balloons would inflate. Sadly the weather has not cooperated and on that night, we had to tell our very anxious and excited two year old that we couldn't see the hot air balloons that night. We were worried about her reaction which made us so delighted when she told us just a few minutes later, "No h'air balloons tonight." What an amazing reaction and sense of acceptance from such a small child.


Saturday, October 8th

460) "The field is cleared to go."- This morning was our last chance to go to the Balloon Fiesta. We were up and out the door early to insure we didn't miss any of the festivities. So how discouraging it was to hear that the balloons may not be able to take off. The weather was questionable to the north and might make landing troublesome. We would never want to endanger the balloonists but it was still hard to hear. After nearly a 45 minute delay, we heard, "The field is cleared to go." What excitement as that first balloon lifted into the air and hundreds of balloons followed after. I'll never tire of watching hot air balloons and so I am thankful for another chance this morning.


Sunday, October 9th

461) Life is unfair- I am grateful I don't always get a fair shake. We often see how unfairness robs us of things we think we deserve or we recognize how life is unfair when it works against us, but so often the unfairness of life works to my advantage. With all the focus in our government on tax reform these days, I realized we benefit from the fact that life isn't fair. If it was, we would all pay the same percentage period. There would be no exceptions. (At least, that's how I see fairness playing out. I realize others have another idea of what would be fair). However we don't. There are deductions and credits that can help reduce an individual or family's tax and that is the case for our family. We have been financially blessed to the "unfairness" of our current tax system. More importantly, I am grateful for unfairness as it applies to my eternal life. Christ didn't deserve the punishment; I did. If life was fair, I would never have the chance to spend eternity in His presence because I am a sinner and have not kept God's law perfectly.  I was saved not out of fairness, but out of love and sacrifice.


Monday, October 10th

462) Herbs- Herbs are seemingly rather small, but oh, what a wonderful addition of flavor they can bring.


Tuesday, October 11th

463) Online shopping- Every move requires some new items for the house. With this house, the biggest issue is that there are quite a few more windows than we had in our last place and they are not similar in size. What this has meant is that we needed to purchase quite a few curtain rods and curtains. After looking for curtain rods at any and every store I could think of (I can count at least 10), I turned to the online world with more options and greater stocks at my disposal. This proved to be a good move as I was finally able to locate what I was looking for, in my price range, and thereby was able to finish one of our main living spaces.


Wednesday, October 12th

464) More visitors- I wasn't expecting any more visitors until the holiday season, and even then, I wasn't expecting to see my side of the family until sometime next year. What a wonderful surprise to find out my older sister and her son and daughter are coming to stay with us for a few days. I am so thankful they can come and cannot wait to spend time with them!


Thursday, October 13th

465) Being Uncomfortable- Recently I have found myself in some uncomfortable spots. There is really nothing I can do to change the situation; it is what it is. It stems from something that is just a part of who I am and cannot be changed. I have rarely had to deal with such a situation before, but I know others who must face this same kind of situation a lot. Through my uncomfortableness, I can and am learning more about me and others. It reminds me of God's ultimate design and plan in this world. So in the end, maybe being uncomfortable isn't always a bad thing.


Friday, October 14th

466) Re-purposing- With all our moving, I find that I re-purpose items each and every time we live in a new house. It cuts down on our expenses and allows me to get more use out of the items we already own. Plus it gives me some chances to flex my creative muscle.


Saturday, October 15th

467) Open late- We have been potty training our toddler the past several days and as it is in the early stages, I have not gotten away from the house much while she is home. I've wanted to focus on teaching her the basics in the hopes that she will apply them on her own in the future. All of this makes me quite grateful for stores that have later hours so I can run an errand or two after our little one is asleep. Not only am I grateful for the stores but I am also thankful for those individuals who work the later shifts that allows the store to maintain those hours.


Sunday, October 16th

468) A little ditty- Our daughter loves music, so to help encourage her during potty training and at the same time teach her some lessons about the potty, I have come up with a few potty song(s).   Not only have they helped pass along our expectations and goals to our daughter without being too "preachy" or serious but they have also helped keep my stress level down throughout the process.


Monday, October 17th

469) Confidence- Whenever I take on a new endeavor, there is always a little doubt. Can I really do this? I felt that way as I began each job I have worked. I felt that way at times throughout my pregnancy and I felt that way as I watched Drew commission into the Army. My confidence may still waiver or flag at times, but with each passing day I find I have a growing confidence that I can do the work set before me.


Tuesday, October 18th

470) Patience- I've known this was a blessing for a long time but haven't commented on it because it's not something I always have in great supply. I like tangible results and when I can't recognize progress, I get impatient and question myself. I see that happening now as we work to finally and fully potty-train our daughter. Sadly I can also see that my impatience is likely affecting her and slowing down her ability to be completely successful. Patience- a great blessing and something I need more of.


Wednesday, October 19th

471) Curtains- One of the first things I like to do after we move is arrange the large pieces of furniture and hang curtains. Since we have always lived in rentals, we cannot paint the walls so curtains have proved to be an excellent way to immediately add a bit of color as well as warmth and a sense of home.


Thursday, October 20th

472) Recipes- I've never been very confident with my cooking. I can cook basic things, but I would never try to just throw something together. I don't trust my knowledge of blending flavors and knowing tastes (like with herbs), so I am ever so thankful for recipes which allow me to expand our meal repertoire without the fear of absolute failure or disaster.


Friday, October 21st

473) New avenues- My last visit to a doctor concerning my migraines left me a little defeated. I knew I still had other options that I could pursue, but I just didn't feel up to it at that time. I've visited with many doctors and never walked away with more answers than I already had; this last doctor was the same. Today I was reminded that defeat does not have to be the final verdict. There are others- some who specialize in headaches- who I could still possibly see, and there are other non-medicinal options out there as well. I cannot say whether there is relief in my future, and if not, I am thankful for the level of functioning I do have and the friends and family who are here (near and far) to support me. However, I am not ready to resign myself to this life of migraines and I am blessed to be reminded that there are still other avenues to pursue.


Saturday, October 22nd

474) Allergy acceptance- When we found out that our daughter might live with a restricted diet because of her allergies into her preschool or even early elementary years, there were some concerns. One of those was how she would handle the fact that there are a lot of foods she just can't eat- even if everyone is. I am so grateful for the understanding and acceptance our daughter has, even at such a young age. Instead of throwing a fit or trying to sneak something she knows she can't eat, our daughter reiterates that the food will give her an "owie in her tummy" and asks to merely smell the forbidden food. It amazes me.



475) Waiting- Sometimes waiting can lead to incredible blessings, particularly when you have given a situation to the Lord and are waiting upon him. Many people have talked to both Drew and I about another child or the benefits to having children closer in age. Despite all the positives we have heard, I am thankful that we have waited to have a second child. We had our own reasons for wanting some time between our first child (and any future children we may be blessed with), but lately I have seen so many unplanned benefits to us and our daughter because we waited. I know it would be a joy to watch our daughter with a sibling, but I don't mind the wait.

Long Overdue Part I - Four Forty-Three thru Four Fifty-Five

"I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God."

Ephesians 3:16-19

Wednesday, September 21st

443) Breaks- Getting everything ready for a move can be crazy and hectic. The list of things to do seems never ending. I am thankful for those breaks we took, whether to go to the Lobos/TTU football game, attend church or just sit down for dinner. Whatever it may have been, it was a wonderful rest and helped to re-energize and get us through this crazy time


Thursday, September 22nd

444) Unknowingly prepared- There are times in my life when I have realized that unrelated previous experiences have helped me better handle and cope with my current situations. Once again, I find myself in the same position, particularly as it applies to our military life. Things are still rough and often difficult but I can see how God has prepared me through other events so that I can have a better chance now.


Friday, September 23rd

445) Easily asleep- As with many little children, new places peak our daughter's interest and curiosity and make it difficult for her to lay down for a nap or bedtime.  With our upcoming move however, she was going to take a nap at our friend's house, so I could continue working on things for the move. I really didn't know if she would sleep, but I was hoping for at least some good rest. What a wonderful blessing when I found out she had gone right to sleep and took a good nap. (Not only that, but she did it again the next day!)


Saturday, September 24th

446) Help- What an incredible amount of help we received today as we moved nearly everything from our old house to our new house 30 minutes away. Without their assistance, there is no way we would be ready to move forward and settle in at our new location. To anyone and everyone who helped us today- whether moving items, doing some light clean up, or watching our little girl, thank you! You truly blessed us this day!


Sunday, September 25th

447) Finding something lost- On our wedding day, Drew and I exchanged gifts. They were nothing elaborate or drastically expensive, but they are still quite special to us. Three years ago, Drew misplaced the gift I had given him. He felt certain it would turn up, especially after not one but two moves. Yet as of yesterday, it was still MIA. Then today, I decided to sort through all of our bags (duffles, backpacks, luggage, etc) and wean down our growing collection. I checked each bag to make certain I had removed everything that I had packed in them for the move and in the process, I pulled out his missing watch. What a surprise and what a delight! I had resigned myself to the idea that it was gone and there it was in my hand.


Monday, September 26th

448) Magic Eraser- I have been doing a lot of cleaning as we finish our move and return our last rental to the owners and new tenants. My goal has been, and continues to be, that we leave the house as close to the way it was given to us- minus nail holes etc. Thanks to reliable cleaning products like Magic Erasers, I have found that it is more reasonable of a goal than ever before.


Tuesday, September 27th

449) Clean windows- As I finished cleaning our old house, I did a good cleaning of the windows. For whatever reason, that is one item I forget to clean regularly. Before I started cleaning they didn't appear too bad, but after cleaning one and comparing it to one right next to it, I realized how much we had missed out by not having truly clean windows. For me, this was a physical representation of a deeper lesson. In my life, small issues can build up with time and fog our lives, taking away clear perspective and direction and robbing us of all the beauty this life can hold. Just as the windows became fogged from a film of dirt and dust, so it is with my life. I am thankful for clean windows that allow me to enjoy the beauty of nature around me even on the stormiest or coldest of days and I am thankful for the deeper lesson they taught me today.


Wednesday, September 28th

450) No watch- Years ago, I consciously decided to stop wearing a watch because I realized that my life was more stressed and rushed as I was always worried about what time it was and what I needed to do next. For the past week or so, time has again taken a huge focus- for one reason or another, so today when I was able to again let go of the watch, it was a blessing. I appreciate being punctual and do not like being late, but even more than that, I appreciate and am thankful for the lessons I have learned about flexibility and leisure since I took off my watch.


Thursday, September 29th

451) A regular schedule- Our daughter has had a crazy schedule for several days due to the move. Naps were hit or miss and bedtime came when we were through with our tasks. This may not be a huge issue for some children, but it doesn't work well for our little girl. How nice it is to be back to a regular schedule and how wonderful to know that the disobedience and fussiness that has come about from a lack of sleep will soon pass.


Friday, September 30th

452) Drew's toothbrush- When you first read this, it may seem a little odd. I know Drew thought so when he saw that I had listed it as one of my blessings, but it is absolutely true. I love seeing Drew's toothbrush on the counter. Why? Because it means he is home or will be coming home after work. We keep our toothbrushes on the counter so when he is going to be away for days or weeks, that is usually one of the first things I notice that is different because of his absence- no toothbrush. Even our little girl notices. This last week of traveling, she commented on his missing toothbrush the first day he was away and she noticed when it was back in "its place" the morning after his return.


Saturday, October 1st

453) Family visiting- One of the hardest aspects for me that is a built-in part of military life is the distance from family. Family is so important to me. I love my family and I want to be able to share in their lives. I also want our daughter to have the same kind of relationships and love for them that I have. I try my best to visit as often as I can, but I find that it is getting harder and harder and I know as our daughter gets old enough for school, we will have even more to take into consideration. Therefore, I am so thankful when family can come out to visit us. I love sharing our home and lives here in New Mexico with them and I love the time we all have to spend together. I know it is not easy- neither the traveling, the expense or the changes in schedules- and that makes me even more grateful.


Sunday, October 2nd

454) Multiple generations- I love worshiping with people from various generations. There is so much that we can offer one another: wisdom, guidance, experience... flexibility, energy. We would be sadder and poorer people if we did not look to those who have gone before us and embrace those who will come behind us.


Monday, October 3rd

455) 365 days- I started this blog 365 days ago and as I thought back on where I was, how I felt and what bothered me then, I realized what a huge blessing these 365 days have been. I have a better relationship with Drew, a better relationship with our daughter, a better appreciation for my duties as mother, a better perspective about the irritations and struggles of this life, a greater appreciation for all that I have and greater hope for the days to come. None of this occurred because of me or my own doing. God is at the core of all this. He gave me the perseverance to continue with my writing when my head said stop or asked "why?". He has blessed me more than I have even begun to count and as I have focused more on him, he has changed my thoughts and heart.

I have shared in 365 days of intentionally counting my blessings and recognizing God's constant and continuing presence in my life and I have been blessed even more because of it. Thank you for your part. To each of you who told me how my thoughts had encouraged you and made you think and to each of you who encouraged me to keep going, God used you to work these changes in me.

Seeing Anew: Four Thirty-Six thru Four Forty-Two

"This is why I speak to them in parables:

'Though seeing, they do not see; though hearing, they do not hear or understand.' 

In them is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah: 

'You will be ever hearing but never understanding; 

you will be every seeing but never  perceiving. 

For this people's heart has become calloused; 

they hardly hear with their ears, and they have closed their eyes. 

Otherwise they might see with their eyes, 

hear with their ears,

 understand with their hearts 

and turn, and I would heal them.' 

But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear."

Matthew 13:13-17

Wednesday, September 14th

436) A new endeavor- Since our daughter has gotten a little bigger, I have struggled more with my role as a stay at home mom. Don't get me wrong. I am so thankful that I can stay home and I feel that is where I should be, if at all possible. However there is another part of me that wanted something more. Not a full time job, but something where I felt like I was contributing in another way, using gifts and talents that have only gotten rusty as a homemaker. A little over a week ago, I was approached by someone from our church about a part time job. The position was something I have some background with and a good foundation to help me as I learn the rest, and it was a fairly limited number of hours. For me, this position was an answer to my prayer and, from the sounds of it, the answer to other's as well. It offers me a chance to do something helpful outside the house, while still being home with our daughter during these formative years.


Thursday, September 15th

437) Two hands- It is incredible how easy it is to take things for granted when you've never known anything different. Tonight after burning four of my fingers while cooking (not smart on my part), I found out just how much I appreciate having two hands instead of just one.


Friday, September 16th

438) Moving companies- Packing for our move has begun, but unlike our last two moves, we have to do the packing on our own. For both of our PCS military moves, we have had the military handle our move which meant they contracted a moving company that came in and did everything- packing, loading, and later unloading. It really is something incredible to watch. They come in, get to work, and have a homey house packed and ready to move in a matter of hours. The moving company and employees have saved me a great deal of planning, stress, labor and worry.


Saturday, September 17th

439) Packing for yourself- Seems kind of ironic that I would list this as a blessing right after saying that moving companies are a blessing, but I have a reason. With a moving company, you have a general idea where items should be, but it seems like there was always one item that I needed and/or wanted from the very beginning that was always at the bottom of the very last box I unpacked. However when you pack for yourself, you know where everything is, making it much easier when it comes time to unpack. So really, both methods have their perks and are a blessing in their own way.


Sunday, September 18th

440) Always learning - You can hear something over and over again, but sometimes you just need to have the right teacher, the right mindset and an open ear all at the right time. I am thankful that learning need not end but can continue throughout this life because the more I learn about this world and its Creator, the better I become.


Monday, September 19th

441) Surrender- Recently I have been re-reading Crime and Punishment which deals at great length with the psychological toll a criminal act can have on an individual. Frequently in the story, the leading character, who committed murder, debates his desire to go straight to the police and confess. Then today I heard a song on the radio, "Here with Me" by Mercy Me


You're everywhere I go
I am not alone
You call me as your own
To know you and be known

You are holy
And I fall down on my knees

I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love

I surrender to your grace
I surrender to the one who took my place

I can feel your presence here with me
Suddenly I'm lost within your beauty
Caught up in the wonder of your touch
Here in this moment I surrender to your love


We can surrender to the authorities; we can surrender to one's love; we can surrender to grace; we can surrender to the Lord and Creator of this world, and I am certain we can surrender to so much else. Generally though I don't think we, as humans, like to surrender to anything or anyone. In doing so, we are giving away some of our power or authority. Yet while each act of surrender takes courage and vulnerability, they also can give us great peace, joy and confidence. Surrendering some of my own rights and some of my independence has allowed me to have a better relationship with family members, a wonderful marriage to an amazing man and the humility to accept the love, grace and salvation of my Heavenly Father.


Tuesday, September 20th

442) The here and now- When I was in high school, I remember wishing that I had been born 100-200 years earlier. I used to dream of what it would be like to be a southern belle during the time of the plantations. I didn't agree with the use of slaves, but the rest of the lifestyle always seemed so romantic and genteel. I have also held highly romanticized views of the Elizabethan and Victorian ages and wondered what it would be like to be the daughter of a noble or even part of the court during those times. Then one day it hit me that if I had lived during any of those eras, I likely wouldn't have been a southern belle or a nobleman's daughter. Most people weren't and their lives were much less romantic and genteel. In addition, there is the reality that the lifestyle of anyone during those times included several hardships I can hardly imagine or fathom enduring: no running water or plumbing in the house, no heat but a fire that must be stoked throughout the night, inadequate and limited medical knowledge that led to earlier deaths- including many young children, the role of women, the same vices we face today. When I really take an honest look at those times- even in the finest of homes, I realize that while there is something romantic and alluring about the stories you read, I don't belong in that age. I was brought into this world at just the right time, and I am so thankful for God's providence and foresight regarding the matter.

To Everything It's Time: Four Twenty-Six thru Four Thirty-Five

"There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

 a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace."

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Sunday, September 4th

426) Shared experiences- I have made some wonderful friends since moving to New Mexico and I have been blessed to have family in the area as well. Both of these facts have made the difficulties of Army life more manageable. However up until just recently, I did not have much interaction with other military spouses. It was not for a lack of interest; circumstances had just hindered it. We have found some ways to work with and around those circumstances and I have had a chance to spend some time with a few Army wives from Drew's platoon. What a wonderful addition to my life! I have known this was missing and I am so grateful to have someone who understands because of their shared experiences.


Monday, September 5th

427) Rules and laws- Children need boundaries; likewise we all need rules and laws to follow. The rules and boundaries of a parent actively show us that we are loved and that our parents care about what happens to us. There is security and comfort in this knowledge- even if, as children, we think it ruins some of our fun. The same continues to remain true as adults. We may think it is in our best interest to have the freedom to do whatever we like and may feel that the phrase "to each his own" should reign supreme, but in the end, we do not find peace, joy and contentment in such an environment. We butt heads with other people following their own way and never seem satisfied. I am thankful for the boundaries and rules that my parents had for me as a child and I am eternally grateful for the loving boundaries and commandments of my Heavenly Father, who has placed me securely on a path of joy and peace despite all odds.


Tuesday, September 6th

428) A lesson on gossip- Numerous years ago when I was still in my young teens, I felt convicted that I was a gossip and that needed to change. So at that time, I did a study on what the Bible says about the tongue, it's dangers and the need for wholesome speech. After that study, I worked very hard to tame my tongue and discard any gossip or unnecessary comments from my speech. Since I am such a talker, my tongue can still cause me some trouble and so I still go back to my notes from that study to remind myself of how I am called to speak. That Bible study and all that I learned from it has been absolutely invaluable to me and I know that it has spared me from many disagreements, estranged friendships and strife.


Wednesday, September 7th

429) Being a friend- I have listed more than one friend type who have blessed me. Sometimes I feel as though my friends have blessed me far more than I have blessed them. I always hate that sense of incongruity because I want to return that blessing. There really is a blessing not only in having friends, but in being a friend- someone a person can turn to in times of celebration, uncertainty, trouble or sadness. I am always blessed when I have a chance to really be a friend.


Thursday, September 8th

430) New house- While we have been content in our current residence, we have recently come to the conclusion that moving could have several benefits that outweighed the work involved with the move. Over a week ago, we put in an application for another house which would definitely offer us those additional benefits without stressing our budget. Today we were given the approval. This is truly a blessing but I feel we will be able to do more- with friends, our church and within our unit- because of this new house.


Friday, September 9th

 431) My playground injuries- Today I came away from a play date a sore and wounded hand. Why? I was showing a four year old how the monkey bars worked. Before I even tried, I knew I was probably going to feel it later. However it was a wonderful portal back to my days at recess, and a little reminder of my time playing with some wonderful kids.


Saturday, September 10th

432) A truly penitent "I'm sorry"- Today our daughter and I ran out for a quick errand. It should have been in and out and back home. However during the trip, our daughter decided she would have none of it. She was disobedient in the store (which was addressed) and threw another tantrum as I tried to place her in her car seat. This tantrum was also addressed, after which we headed towards home. Everything seemed to be going just as they do with every other tantrum, except that when I went to get her out of the car, she looked at me and said, "I'm sorry." Those words truly are amazing. They erased from my memory all the disobedience problems we had had that day. I know we still have a long road ahead of us with our little girl, but this was a wonderful moment of encouragement.


Sunday, September 11th 

433) Remembering- I may not be old enough to remember the day Pearl Harbor was attacked or the day President Kennedy was assassinated, but I remember September 11, 2001- the day a few handfuls of terrorists attacked our country- flying planes into the World Trade Center towers, the pentagon and aiming for another point in Washington DC.


I remember watching previous footage of the smoke rising from a side of the Pentagon and the first tower's collapse.
I remember watching live as the second tower came crashing down and hearing of the downed plane in the fields of Pennsylvania, and I remember what I felt.
I remember feeling fear and terror- wondering could there be more attacks to come, and if so, where?
I remember the sadness as the death toll rose.

I also remember our response, on that day and in the days to follow:

I remember the countless heroes who did not have to enter the Towers but did just that in the hopes of saving as many as possible.
I remember the overwhelming stories of valor and sacrifice.
I remember those heroes who gave their very all before the day was out.
I remember the men and women of United Airlines Flight 93, who learned what was occurring and sabotaged the terrorists' plans for that plane- likely saving many, many lives.
I remember the subsequent unity of our country.
I remember people coming together in friendship and neighborliness, and I remember a renewed sense of charity and generosity.
I remember American flags flying high all across our nation.
I remember the signs across the country proclaiming God bless America, and I remember the overflowing church pews on Sunday mornings as people searched for peace, understanding, and comfort after the terrible event.


Our response has slowly faded back to the norm as the demands of everyday life have weighed upon us, but I remember. We do not need another national disaster or act of terror to bring out those amazing qualities that we, as a country, do possess. Those qualities are in us just waiting to come out and could become our norm.

I remember.

Monday, September 12th

434) A set of fuzzy, warm pajamas- Last Christmas, Drew gave me a set of fleecy pajamas (pants and a long sleeved top). He did so because he knew I often get cold before everyone else and therefore need warmer clothing on or a blanket. Well cool nights have returned to New Mexico and while Drew and our daughter sleep better with a slightly cooler house, I freeze, especially from about our daughter's bedtime until I myself slip under the covers. It sure was wonderful to slip into my warmer pajamas for those last few hours. They definitely were not a necessity but oh, what a blessing!


Tuesday, September 13th

435) Cuddles- The last few weeks with our little girl have been fairly rough. As her allergies are ones that she should eventually grow out of, we have tried a couple of those foods to see how she handles them. So far, none have been successful and it has left us with a cranky, demanding and tired little girl. On top of that, she was a little sick over the weekend and is cutting her last 2-year molar. The crankiness, tiredness and subsequent disobedience have persisted. Despite all of that, I am blessed. The most obvious reason is her; no matter her mood or level of exhaustion, she still blesses me. On top of that though, I can count on the fact that our little girl will cuddle with me at least for a little while each morning after she first awakes and again before she lays down at bedtime. She is a little cuddlebug and I cherish those moments with her.

I LOVE my family: Four Twelve thru Four Twenty-Five

"'Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! 

How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out!

Who has known the mind of the Lord?

Or who has been his counselor?

Who has ever given to God, that God should repay him?'

For from him and through him and to him are all things.

To him be the glory forever! Amen."

Romans 11:33-36

It has been quite a while since I last posted, and as I didn't want to overwhelm everyone with a really long post, I decided to separate the one post into two, more manageable posts. Here is part 1.


Sunday, August 21st

412) Fever reducing medicine- We battled our daughter's high fever for all of yesterday and by day's end, it was well over 103 and pushing 104. Scary! We had to do whatever we could to get that temp down- using cold wash cloths, ice and fever reducing medicine- or an ER visit was imminent. While the wash cloths and ice helped with initially cooling her down, it was the medicine that brought her some relief and eased our worries. I am ever so grateful for the creator and producers of such medicine.


Monday, August 22nd

413) Baking soda- What an incredible powder! Baking soda can be used for cooking, personal hygiene, a sport supplement, a cleaning agent, a cattle supplement, a variety of medical uses and more. We have found that it helps to heal severe diaper rash tied to allergic reactions that our daughter has had. When nothing else seems to take out the sting and clear the rash, baking soda in her bath water has proved to be effective every single time.


Tuesday, August 23rd

414) My exes- Today is my high school boyfriend's birthday. Perhaps that seems like an odd thing to recognize, but he was a really good guy and a wonderful first boyfriend for me. It made me stop a little and I realized I have been blessed in one way or another by all of my ex-boyfriends. For one, I was blessed to date some wonderful, good men- truly rare in the broader scope of teenage and young twenty-something men. I also learned something from each of those relationships. They didn't all end well, but along the way, I still learned a lot about myself, my priorities in a mate, and how I act in relationships. All of what I learned has helped me with my relationship with Drew.


Wednesday, August 24th

415) Drew's sleeping ability- I have often said that it seemed ironic that Drew would choose the military when he loves to sleep in so very much. It seems so inconsistent in that respect, yet today I saw just how his love and affinity for sleep and the Army work well together. Drew was home around 4pm and had to be back at his shop for a 24-36 hour shift at 7pm. He came home, said hello and went in to sleep some before he had to head back out. If it had been me, I would have struggled. I cannot fall asleep on command- at any time, in any situation, but Drew can. That ability serves him well.


Thursday, August 25th

416) Help despite all else- Tuesday, I was on a mission to clean; our daughter had other ideas though. Top that off with a migraine, and by the time Drew got home, I hadn't accomplished nearly as much as I had hoped. However, I was determined to finish my list, knowing it needed to be done and needed to be done then. I was blessed in that Drew helped me with cleaning, assisting in a variety of ways, so we could have some down time together before the night was out. He did all of this despite the fact that he knew he was headed into a busy couple of work days that could amount to a 36 hour shift. What an incredible man!


Friday, August 26th

417) Prioritizing- Life can get busy and the every day duties can seem to take over, so I am thankful when I remember to stop and make time for our little girl even when my to-do list seems unending. After all, the cleaning will always be there, but this time with our child will quickly pass away.


Saturday, August 27th

418) Walking through produce aisles- I don't know if I can completely explain this one. I just love walking through produce aisles or produce markets. It's invigorating; I love the smells, the colors and the possibilities.


Sunday, August 28th

419) Individuality- We all have our quirks and that is what makes each of us unique. I know with absolute certainty that many of my quirks can drive others crazy or even be misunderstood. I am thankful that my husband loves me- not in spite of those quirks but including those quirks. He just chuckles a little and tells me I am being very Danielle and that it is cute. What a lucky girl I am!


Monday, August 29th

420) Imagination- Imagination is such a wonderful quality because it can allow you to entertain yourself wherever you are, with very little, and it can be the beginning of creativity and invention.


Tuesday, August 30th

421) Obedience- This is a big issue in our house right now since our little girl is two and testing her boundaries and independence. We are very blessed that, overall, our girl is fairly obedient. She has her days, but when I look at the whole picture, I know that her times of obedience far outweigh those times of disobedience and tantrums. As I watch my daughter and consider how her obedience and disobedience affects our relationship and our day, it makes me consider my own obedience, both as my parents' child and as a child of God. Learning to obey my parents helped me as I considered my personal relationship with God, and my obedience in both situations has made my days easier, brighter and more enjoyable overall.


Wednesday, August 31st

422) Good brain- After some new, rather disconcerting side effects to my migraines and the continuing high prevalence of them, I have visited a neurologist just to make certain there wasn't some serious change that had caused everything. Today they did an EEG to check for seizure activity (due to my history of epilepsy) and the results showed that my brain is healthy. It may not have provided me with the answers to my questions regarding my migraines, but it helped settle some old concerns with my medical history.


Thursday, September 1st

423) Walking the Talk- When talking with someone about faith issues, I have found that one of the biggest and most common reasons someone has ruled out Christianity is because of the hypocrisy and discrepancies they see in the lives of Christians around them. This knowledge always deeply affects me since as Christians, we are called to have the exact opposite effect on people. We should be living in such a way that those outside the faith ask, "What does he/she have that is different from me? Because whatever it is, I want it." Of course we all make mistakes; it is part of our human nature. However those people who truly try to live what they say they believe- day in and day out whether in public or behind closed doors, are a blessing both for themselves and for others. They are personally blessed because they are living harmoniously and in accordance to God's will and they are a blessing to others as they show them that not all Christians are "hot air" or "hypocrites."


Friday, September 2nd

424) A family day- I love spending time with my little family. We have lots of time together throughout the weeks and months (generally speaking), but the duties and obligations of every day life often keep us hopping. So when we take a little time to get away from all that and just enjoy time together, I love it. There is very little that is better balm for my soul than some time just for Drew, our little girl and myself.


Saturday, September 3rd

425) My little family- I love them; I love them; I love them so very much, and that is all that needs to be said.

Trust & Certainty, Wisdom & Truth- Four Hundred Three thru Four Eleven

"For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully give thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light." Colossians 1:9-12


Friday, August 12th

403) Taking initiative- It is easy to see a situation that bothers or disappoints you and merely complain about it. However when you choose to stop complaining and do something to try to right the situation, you can be greatly blessed. At that point, you are no longer a victim of circumstances but the navigator of circumstances. Hopefully the Lord is the captain of your ship, but if you take initiative- when possible- you go from being tossed about on the winds and whims of life to directing your ship and navigating through life.


Saturday, August 13th

404) Trust- In what do I place my trust? In whom do I trust? Trust is not freely given; generally it must be earned. Once trust is lost, it can be a hard thing to rebuild. There are some here on earth that I trust, not because they will never hurt me or always have the right answers, but I trust them because I know they would never intentionally hurt or mislead me. I am thankful for the ability to trust them and the trust that so many of them have placed in me. Trust can transform your relationships and that is exactly what it has done for me.

There is one other that I trust, more than any of the others combined. I trust Him not because he will never intentionally hurt or mislead me, but because He will never hurt me and always has the best answers and guidance.

Some trust in the scientific method; I trust in the One who made science possible.
Some trust in mathematical equations; I trust in the Designer of math.
Some trust in government; I trust in the One who grants government their power.
Some trust in their own strength; I trust in the strength of the Almighty.


Sunday, August 14th

405) My brother (in-law)- Twelve years ago, my older sister married an enthusiastic, energetic and somewhat crazy Tennessean. At the time, it scared me a little. My sister had always been my best friend, but I knew that with marriage her time and devotion would go another direction. Not only that but I knew it meant she was going to permanently live far away from our family. Neither thought was thrilling in my mind. Twelve years later, I still think my brother-in-law is quite enthusiastic, energetic and a little crazy (but only at times) and I love him for it. His infectious spirit has added so much to our family and the past twelve years just wouldn't be the same without him. Happy Anniversary!


Monday, August 15th

406) Certainty- "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1 There is so much in this life that is uncertain and as an Army family, I have found that our lives hold even more uncertainty. Sometimes it can seem like nothing is a given. At times like that, I am so grateful for my faith and the certainty it provides. Even if everything in my life is flipped on its head or comes crumbling down around my ears, I am certain about God, who He is and how much He loves me.


Tuesday, August 16th

407) Donating- At the most basic level (and thanks to my frugal disposition), I am thankful for donating because it offers a wonderful option for your gently used clothing and household goods that at the same time can benefit others. Looking at the bigger picture (because donating is not just gently used clothing and household goods), it truly is "better to give than receive." I want to use the Lord's blessings in our lives to bless others. Donating of our time, our finances and our possessions is just one of those ways.


Wednesday, August 17th

408) Truth- There are some in our society who would say that truth is relative. After all, it's all a matter of opinion and everyone has a right to their opinion. I would agree that everyone has a right to their opinion, but truth is not a matter of opinion. There is one and only one truth in this world and it has been built into us, evidenced by our sense of right and wrong, fairness and justice. We can override that which is built in us, but we cannot change the truth. Some find the truth limiting or weighty, but I have found that the truth is liberating. It doesn't free me from rules, but it lifts my spirits, comforts my soul and give me peace about the future.


Thursday, August 18th

409) A gift card- Surprise! I got our mail and what did I find..... a gift card to the wholesale store where we have always bought our daughter's diapers. It was a little gift from the store and the diaper company for our faithful patronage. I never expected anything of the like, but what a wonderful little gift to find in our mailbox.


Friday, August 19th

410) A second set of eyes- We all see things a little differently: events, opportunities, possibilities and difficulties. With the help of a second set of eyes, we often can get a better, more well-rounded understanding of whatever we are facing. I had that kind of help this week and I am so grateful for it.


Saturday, August 20th

411) Remembering wise advice- I have received a lot of good and wise advice over the years. There are a few that often come back to me and have helped me through a wide variety of events and circumstances. Two such pieces of advice readily come to mind. My parents told me both.

"Enjoy the journey." I cannot tell you how many times this simple phrase has lifted me up during hard times or re-focused my thoughts when I was burdened down with minute details.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6 When I left for college, my parents also had the chance to leave me a video message which the school would play during my first week of college midterms. (All the freshmen's parents were invited to do the same.) My parents left me with this Bible verse. Obviously it's not original to them, but I have never forgotten those words as they left me hours from home as an 18 year old girl. Not only were they encouraging me to live that way, but they were living out the words themselves. No matter what I face- when life doesn't make sense or seems downright unfair- I remember this verse and my parents who shared it with me, in words and deed.

Let Your Light Shine: Three Eighty-Nine thru Four Hundred Two

"I lift up my eyes to the hills-

where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord,

the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip-

he who watches over you will not slumber;

indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord watches over you-

the Lord is your shade at your right hand;

the sun will not harm you by day,

nor the moon by night.

The lord will keep you from all harm-

he will watch over your life,

the Lord will watch over your coming and going

both now and forevermore."

Psalm 121

Friday, July 29th

389) Shade- After living in humid climates for several years where the shade does not ease the oppressive heat, I have gained a stronger appreciation for shade here in Albuquerque. What an incredible difference between standing with the sun beating down upon your head and relaxing in the shade. The temperature is significantly different. Shade has allowed my family to enjoy the outdoors far more than we were able to during past summers.


Saturday, July 30th

390) Singing- How thankful I am that God gave us the ability to sing!  I love singing myself, listening as others sing- particularly when standing in the midst of a congregation singing praises to God, and hearing our little girl find her singing voice. They all brings me joy, entertainment and peace. I cannot imagine life without singing.


Sunday, July 31st

391) Clothes for our little one-I  know buying toys for children is far more fun than clothes, but we are ever so thankful to those who help us keep our little girl dressed. The older and bigger she gets, the more I am reminded of this blessing.


Monday, August 1st

392) Crock pot meals- I love my crock pot. In fact I use it frequently enough that we have two (comes in handy at Thanksgiving time). I love that I can make a wide variety of meals where the preparation takes place earlier in the day before I get busy with other things, and it doesn't add too much additional heat to our house.


Tuesday, August 2nd

393) A good end after a rough start- This morning was a rough morning for our daughter. It was one of those days where I felt like the only word I said was "no." I wondered briefly if I was just being too strict and putting too many boundaries up, but as I looked back over the various situations, I realized it wasn't me. Our daughter was just having one of those days. It was wearying and hard and settling down for nap time was no different. What a pleasure it was for me then when our little girl awoke full of smiles, laughter and obedience. The rest of our day went smoothly and it was just a reminder that "this too shall pass."


Wednesday, August 3rd

394) Others' prayers- My headaches and migraines have been giving me a great deal of trouble over the past few weeks and no amount of rest or assistance from Drew has helped. I had already decided it was time to try to get a more thorough check-up and the past weeks have only confirmed that. Needless to say, I was a bit disheartened when I called the doctor's office where I was to be referred and was told that the wait was six-seven weeks. I really didn't know if I, or my family, could make it that long if I didn't see some relief. I had told my family and friends about this delay and I knew they all were praying. What an incredible blessing to call yesterday and be told there was a cancellation and I could get in today. The timing of my call with the new opening in my doctor's schedule was far beyond coincidence, it was the answer to prayers of so many people. Thank you!


Thursday, August 4th

395) Medical Insurance- I have been very blessed to have some form of medical insurance for all but six months of my life. Don't get me wrong: I know there are lots of problems and difficulties when dealing with insurance. I remember the discussions and struggles my parents had when my Dad changed jobs, but they needed to maintain my coverage in order to insure my epilepsy wasn't classified as "pre-existing." I remember weaning myself off all my migraine medicine after college and enduring severe rebound migraines because I was without insurance and could no longer afford prescription medication. Even now we have to go through the correct hoops in just the right order- for both our insurance company and any civilian doctors- to insure any visits or procedures will be covered. Despite the hardships, the rising deductibles we have paid and all the red tape, I am still grateful for medical insurance. There is no way we could afford the medical care we have and continue to receive otherwise, and in times of crisis, insurance can make what could be an astronomical bill more manageable.


Friday, August 5th

396) Creative solutions- Sometimes necessity leads to creativity. When the easy, most obvious method just isn't readily available, I am thankful that I can think a little outside of the box and find another solution.


Saturday, August 6th

397) Our BioPark membership- A few months back, Drew and I decided to become members at the Albuquerque BioPark (which includes the zoo, aquarium, and botanical gardens). It was a wonderful decision and has given us many wonderful days of enjoyment already.


Sunday, August 7th

398) Enjoy my "job"- No I don't work outside the home, but what I do is a good 40 hour a week job all the same. Drew and I have always said that, if possible, we wanted me to be able to stay home when our child(ren) were small. We felt it was important and beneficial, so it has always been something I wanted to do. Now it's more than something I feel compelled to do, it's something I love to do. I love being able to spend time with our little girl, watching her grow, laughing with her when she is silly, and helping to mold her into a loving, respectful, obedient young person. I also enjoy the ability to try new, more time-consuming meals. They are nothing too outlandish, but it's more than I would have done when I was working outside the house. Last- and this will likely show my OCD some- I love a clean house. There is something wonderful about a spotless stainless steel faucet and the feel of freshly swept and mopped floors. I didn't always know if I would be a good person to stay home full-time and sometimes I still have my doubts. No matter what, I love what I do and you can't ask for more than that.


Monday, August 8th

399) Light- In the past thirty-six hours or so, I have heard several comments about darkness versus light. It has only reminded me just how thankful I am for light. I had never really thought about it before. I suppose it's just too much a part of our everyday life, but without light, what a chaotic and difficult life it would be. While this is true in our physical world, there is an even greater spiritual truth. The light, given to us by the Holy Spirit, has the same effect on darkness. I am grateful for everyone who has let their light shine before men, and in doing so, pointed people to Christ. Their light blazes forth in a darkened world and offers hope, peace and joy unlike anything else available in this world.


Tuesday, August 9th

400) Dust Mop- If you haven't caught on yet, I do love a clean house. For a long time, one of my biggest pet peeves was that even after sweeping and mopping, my tiled floors would still feel dirty and gritty. The broom and mop just didn't clean well enough. Then I found a dry/damp dust mop and decided to try it out. Now when I clean my floors, I walk away feeling as though the job has been completed and completed well. Yes, it adds a little more time to my cleaning, but I think the end result is worth it.


Wednesday, August 10th

401) Our daughter's blossoming sense of humor- Over the past few weeks, the word we have most frequently used to describe our daughter is silly and with good reason. She has started to intentionally say the silliest things just to get a smile or laugh. The more we react, the more she continues. It struck me that this is just the beginning of her sense of humor and it is a joy to watch.


Thursday, August 11th

402) Living unafraid- Fear can be paralyzing. I know that personally. I have an uncontrollable phobia of flying insects or any insect that resembles a flying insect. I know how this fear started, and I also know it is irrational. All the same, no matter what I tell myself, I still find myself nearly frozen in fear with a racing heart and rising body temperature thanks to a tiny bug several feet away. Other fears in this life can be far more paralyzing with a far greater impact on our lives. I have a few other fears that I regular combat: some related to my own fortitude, others related to military life and still others stemming from my people-pleasing, perfectionistic mindset. I know these fears exist because at some point or another, I have had to face them and decide "Will I allow my fears to rule my life or will I live by faith?". So far every time I have stepped out in spite of my fears, I have been blessed.

I know only one thing in life to truly be afraid of and that is living a life apart from God.

The Common- Three Sixty-Six thru Three Eighty-Eight

"No one is like you, O Lord;

you are great, and your name is mighty in power. 

Who should not revere you, O King of the nations?

This is your due.

Among all the wise men of the nations and in all their kingdoms,

there is no one else like you."

Jeremiah 10:6-7

Wednesday, July 6th

366) Pictures- I was looking through photos of the past two years today as I worked some on our daughter's scrapbook. Often a picture would remind me of one of her special quirks that has faded with age and thus is no longer in the forefront of my memory. It was so much fun to look back and see what a silly, truly unique child she is. Pictures are just things and without them I would still have my memories, but it's still nice to have them to flip through once in a while.


Thursday, July 7th

367) Hotel points- Traveling can be a daunting event, made even more so when you factor in the cost for gas, food and lodging. As we drive to Texas, I am thankful that one of those items has been covered through hotel points. We have been able to break up the drive without adding to our budget and that is pretty incredible.


Friday, July 8th

368) Luggage carts- I never really thought much about luggage carts at hotels. My only connection to them was that they are often shown in movies out front of your nicer hotels, but now that I am a woman alone with a toddler and all our bags and all the assortment, I think about them so much more. A luggage cart turns a two to four trip event into one trip. It also allows me to hold my daughter's hand so she doesn't head off in the wrong direction. All around, it's a huge benefit and blessing.


Saturday, July 9th

369) Choices- We have a lot of choices in life and depending on what and how we choose, they can be both positive and negative. However, no matter what my choice or the resulting outcome, I am grateful that I have been given the freedom of choice. Especially when I consider my faith, I am blessed to know the relationship I have with the Lord comes from free will. God did not force his love or grace on me and that makes his love and grace all the more amazing. I know He has the might and ability to require all humanity to love Him, and if He did, we wouldn't know any other way. However that was not His way. To let us choose is an amazing gift.


Sunday, July 10th

370) Playing in the rain- Albuquerque isn't exactly known for its wealth of precipitation and for our daughter who moved here before her first birthday, she has few memories of rain at all. As with most of the middle portion of our country, we have been experiencing a drought and have gone months without rain. Our daughter had a chance to see rain a few months back, but it was only today that she first had the chance to experience the joy of playing in the rain. I am so glad I was able to be there, splashing, dancing and jumping with her. What a treasured memory!


Monday, July 11th

371) Water- Water is another one of those items in our lives that it is probably quite easy to overlook and take for granted. Just consider all the ways we use and rely on water in our lives: drinking, washing, cooking, feeding plants, staving off illness, recovering from illness, cooling off in heat. Those are just the benefits and uses that immediately came to mind in a minute or so. Water is such a simple, basic substance and one, that for us in particular, is easily accessible in many forms, yet oh, what an amazing gift that not only aids in life itself but also adds to and augments life.


Tuesday, July 12th

372) Sharp knives- My grandmother has always commented on the sharpness of individuals' knives when she is helping out in their kitchen. She never means it in a bad way; she just has a true appreciation for a good sharp knife. Some of her thinking must have rubbed off on me because I see the benefits, ease and safety that is provided through using the correct, sharp knife.


Wednesday, July 13th

373) Great grandparents- I have always felt blessed that I had the chance to know four of my great grandparents. Not only did I know of them, but I had actually spent time with them. Now our daughter has that same opportunity and I think it is wonderful. Our daughter is blessed to not only have five great grandparents but one great, great grandma. She has spent time with them all and I pray she will have many more opportunities for they are truly great and wonderful people to know.


Thursday, July 14th

374) A break-Traveling for me doesn't necessarily equal a vacation as my job has always come with me. :) I'm pretty sure that was in the job description, but still it is nice to get a little break- in one way or another at least every now and then. When I visit family I have been blessed with people who want to help in a variety of ways, from watching our daughter to relieving me of my cooking and laundry duties and so much more. It's a nice little break and something I neither require nor expect- which makes it all the nicer.

Friday, July 15th

375) Timer- In recent months,  I have found that I am using timers for a multitude of reasons, but I have found them to be a particular blessing when it comes to our daughter. Although she doesn't understand segments of time, she does recognize that if we set the timer (for one reason or another), there is a definite end to an activity. This realization has helped to eliminate tantrums and frustrations and made for a more pleasant home.


Saturday, July 16th

376) Surprises- Today I was surprised with a birthday in July (instead of December). I really do not know exactly how or when the thought first arose, but some of Drew's family recognized how close my birthday is to Christmas and how easily it gets overshadowed by the holiday and decided to have a special celebration while I was in town. What a surprise! All along I was looking forward to some time with Drew's family and I ended up having a birthday celebration. It was completely unexpected and something I never would have considered asking for myself and that made it all the more special.


Sunday, July 17th

377) Answered prayers- There are lots of times when we need to pray. In fact there is really no time when we shouldn't pray, but I don't believe most of us recognize that need a good portion of the time. I am thankful for those times when I recognize my need for prayer and also see how God has worked in my life and answered my requests, whether as I would hope or otherwise.


Monday, July 18th

378) Anti-itch cream- I don't know exactly what it is, but insects in Texas seem to think I am especially tasty. I have been bit several times and have had some minor allergic reactions to the bites. In the past, I have been bit by plenty of fire ants, but the itch from those bites was nothing compared to what I have been dealing with as of late. I am so thankful that someone thought to figure out a topical method to help alleviate the itch. It could seem a little mundane, but oh- what a pleasant difference it has made for my past few days.


Tuesday, July 19th

379) Step stool- While at Nana's house, our daughter got to use a step stool while she brushed her teeth. I knew it would be a fun, new experience for her, but I never would have guessed it would have improved her interest and concentration in brushing her teeth. She has never done such a good job and I am certain it is because she got to watch herself in the mirror.


Wednesday, July 20th

380) "Jesus Loves Me"- Our daughter has started to repeat familiar phrases from songs that she hears. In the past few days, she has randomly begun to sing (using her own wording, of course) the chorus of "Jesus Loves Me." It has to be one of the sweetest things to hear. I love listening to her sing, no matter what the song, but when I hear her singing such a profound truth that I pray will come to mean the world to her, I can't help but feel blessed.


Thursday, July 21st

381) Automatic Transmission- Our Hyundai is the first automatic transmission vehicle I have ever owned or really driven. I decided that I wanted at least one car to be an automatic as I figured it would make things a little easier when it was just me and our daughter in the car. At least that way, I had one hand that was more free to assist her without an incredible feat of juggling. During our long Texas road trip, I gained another appreciation for automatics. Construction zones and inner-city driving is much easier and it's just one less thing to worry about when you have a tired, fussy girl in the backseat.


Friday, July 22nd

382) Long driving hours- Our trip home from Texas spanned two days, around 900 miles and approximately 16 hours on the road. I found that during all of those miles I had lots of time to think and pray. Filling that time with praises to our Lord, prayers and counting my blessings not only helped make the time go faster, but it also helped me emotionally and spiritually. Nothing like being trapped with your own thoughts to bring out the best, or worst, in you.


Saturday, July 23rd

383) The smell of rain- There is something refreshing about the smell of rain, isn't there? And now that we, along with so many others, have been experiencing an extreme drought the smell offers something even more- hope for some relief and some nourishment for the earth.


Sunday, July 24th

384) My own stubbornness- Usually I would not see this as a beneficial quality. It has often placed me at odds with others and under more stressed than I need to be. However, right now it is truly a blessing. Our little girl has a strong will and a good dose of determination and sometimes, downright stubbornness. As I am the adult (and authority figure) she is around the most, she seems to try to test my authority more, but no matter how determined she may be, she has met her match and finds that obedience is the best choice.


Monday, July 25th

385) A good report- For the first several months of this year, I found myself quite stressed over our daughter's diet. Her pediatrician was concerned about her minimal daily weight gain and decided to more closely monitor it. Although her average daily weight gain did increase early on, it was only slightly. However for the past three months or so, I have not worried about her diet. We have continued to feed her as we have always done and relied on our knowledge that she is healthy. She looks healthy, eats healthy, acts healthy and has been developing normally. We just went in for her 2 year check up and got a glowing report. Her doctor was so impressed with her growth. It was nice to hear and confirmed what we knew all along.


Tuesday, July 26th

386) UV protective clothing- Let me state the obvious by stating that Drew, our daughter and myself are all pale. My tans are lighter than most people's starting point. Sadly, this also means we all burn fairly easily, and this is especially true for Drew and our daughter. This fact has probably been one of the biggest concerns since we moved more than a mile above sea level. People who already burn easily toast at super speeds when they are closer to the sun and the air is thinner. We have been able to find some very light-weight, UV protective shirts for both Drew and our daughter and already we see the difference. Not only does this cut down on every day pain, but it is also protecting them for the long run. There isn't much that beats that!


Wednesday, July 27th

387) Kayak.com- Drew and I are looking at taking a trip for our 5th anniversary and so I have been doing lots of online research- looking for locations, lodging, plane tickets etc. Kayak.com has been most helpful in searching several travel sites at once and providing me with all the information. Saves me time, energy and probably a little bit of sanity.


Thursday, July 28th

388) Walking distance- This morning I had quite a To-Do list that I knew I probably wouldn't be able to completely finish, but I would try my best. The day started with some errands, just a quick trip to the Walmart and grocery store down and around the corner from us, and that is when our whole day changed. On my way out the door, I went to put a pen away in a drawer and grabbed my keys off the counter. As usual, I locked the door knob before heading out then prepared to lock the deadbolt from outside. However when I looked down, I was holding a pen not my keys and my keys were no where on my person. Oh no! I had locked my daughter and I out of the house and Drew wasn't likely to get home for a good 7 hours or so. I pulled out my cell phone to call Drew but before I could leave him a voice message, my phone went dead. So now I was outside with a two year old on a day that was bound to be in the mid to high 90's with no immediate way to contact my husband, who has the only other house key. I tried knocking on a neighbor's door but she wasn't home. And that is when our location in and around many businesses became such a huge blessing. We walked down to the library and I was able to use their phone to leave a message for Drew explaining the situation. A little later, we walked down and around the corner to a McDonald's where we were able to eat, drink lots of fluids and enjoy some cool air. As much as I have always loved the country and living in a place where you have a little more space, I am ever so thankful that today we were in the middle of town, within a reasonable walk to so many places.

How 365 Blessings Has Changed Me

When I started this blog, I did so because I knew I was allowing minor irritations and temporary situations to affect and ruin my day. All it took was one thing that frustrated or bothered me and I found the entire day was clouded with those feelings. I knew there was more to this life; I knew God had called me to something better and had given me all that I needed. The problem was me. I was focused on the negative and failed to recognize all the amazing and good things I have. So 9 months and 365 blessings later, how have I changed?

(Since I am so good with lists, I guess will just continue the trend.)

Better outlook- 9 months ago I was pretty down. I was frustrated with nearly every aspect of my life and I really did not see any relief in my future. Then I decided to change my focus and intentionally count the blessings in my life. Since then I have seen my outlook improve drastically. I still have those times when things weigh me down, but they are only passing moods instead of the prevailing wind. When I look to the future, I am eager with anticipation because I have great hope for what is yet to come- both in this world and at the end of this world.

Improved mindset and attitude in general- Besides just having a better outlook when it comes to my future, I can see how my overall mindset and attitude has improved. I have to admit that before I began this count, I allowed myself to wallow in self-pity and perceived injustices, and both of those things muddied my thoughts, feelings, attitude and relationships with others. I have learned that my attitude does not have to be dictated by my emotions but is a matter of my will. In the end, it is my choice. I can enjoy the life I have or I can always look for something "greener." Today, I choose to not only enjoy but thank the Lord above for my life.

Handle the ups and downs of life easier and with more grace- When controlled by your emotions, you feel as though you are on a never ending roller coaster, and not one of those kiddie rides, but the all out, lose your stomach rides. That is exactly where I was. I still have that initial knee-jerk reaction to drastic events or changes, but overall I recover quicker and can move forward with more ease.

Do not take my husband for granted- I would like to think that I have never taken Drew for granted, but I know that is not the case. When I was wrapped up in self-pity and despair, I found ways to mentally blame Drew and also failed to recognize his efforts and encouragement that might have lifted my spirits. That just isn't the case now. I know Drew is one of the greatest blessings God has given me, and he is right by my side no matter what may come or how I act.

Closer relationship with Drew- To me, this is just a natural extension and benefit from all the above. Not only did the above help our relationship because I had a better attitude and mindset, but as I was no longer weighed down with the burden of my responsibilities, I was freer to relax and enjoy the time we have together. I cannot speak for Drew, but I can say with all confidence that, for me, the past nine months have been the best months of our married life.

Calmed some of my perfectionism- Anyone who knows me very well knows that I struggle with a need to be perfect. I have been like that for as long as I can remember. It made for a fairly easy childhood as I always wanted my parents to be pleased with me, but as time has gone on, I have found it is more of a struggle to maintain and more detrimental to my well-being. Counting my blessings may be my cure because it is extremely difficult to claim that all you do is perfect when you can see that everything good has come from God.


So, now what? That is the question I have heard the most lately and that is the question I have been asking myself. Do I continue this journey? Do I need to make some changes as I proceed and find that some days the blessings I see are ones I have already counted? Honestly it has been quite a debate for me. Of course as I debated this yesterday, several new blessings came to mind and I knew I was not done yet. Not only do I have so many more blessings that can be counted, but I know that without the journaling, I would likely fall back into old ways. That is something I want to avoid at all costs.

 Looking back over my journey of writing about a year's worth of blessings, I can only think to leave it one way.... with a challenge. Whether individually, with a small group, Sunday School class, or group of friends- buy a journal and start writing about your own blessings. Do it for a month or two or perhaps continue for 100 or even 365 blessings, and I know that you will be as blessed by the process as I have been.